Wait

Today I don’t know how to feel, or what to say.

I wonder how you’re doing; Are you okay?

I’m tired and more confused than I thought I’d be.

Do you think of me throughout your day? Like I think of you.

You’re who I want to see; have you already pushed me to the sides of your memory?

It’s rare I don’t have words for how I feel,

Or an answer of what I should do in moments like this.

What’s wise? What’s best? What do I want?

I don’t know what I want and for a moment I thought I knew,

I wanted us; But I can’t wait forever for forever with you.

There’s so much that I’ve learned in the 2 years of knowing you,

What really loving someone feels like,

There is a typhoon of questions that all belong to you.

Releasing expectations, yet hesitant to move on,

How many times have I listened to this song?

I walked 17 miles today, with lyrics that sang true.

Losing you, has made room for something and someone new.

But the hole left behind, is in the shape of you.