Signs

This is one of the longest goodbyes,

I’ve had in a long time.

But, at least I can say I tried.

You cried, but the tears came out from my eyes.

Washing us both away with my growing pains, and your rip tides.

I don’t remember the last day my eyes went dry,

I know it’s been some time.

Much longer than the last time your hands touched mine.

There were so many signs,

I was yours but you were not mine.

Too many signs pointing towards this darkening path,

I’ve been so blinded by,

I wish I could see where my feet will carry me next.

I still can’t believe how you lied,

And then lied with me, so easily.

So quickly.

There is so much I don’t remember,

But I remember this.

I can’t forget the ache in my chest.

I was filled with emotion, love and trust,

I’d given you my best. I was trying my best.

But, I’ll never forget that day I went stone cold.

Numb, as you usually do.

I asked God if it was a test,

How many times can I be struck,

How many times, am I willing to break,

How many more smiles am I willing to fake?

This has been one of the longest heartbreaks,

So I need to say goodbye for now, for my own sake.