Not Long Enough

I am numb to your indecision,

So quickly to give in,

To a strangers pretty smile.

“Yeah, it’s been a while.”

Not long enough for you,

I suppose, I should have known.

I even questioned it,

Suspected, what my body already knew.

Who else have you belonged to?

“Nobody else.”

You said smiling, looking me in the eyes.

Another lie, I knew I couldn’t believe,

Poison seeped through your teeth,

As you walked away from me.

Leaving me numb; I let you leave.

I blamed myself, I blamed my body.

“It’s just my stupid anxiety.”