You Again

Romanticizing memories shared between you and I,

You were a dream, my dream;

A vision of what I’d wished you to be.

And I loved you with my whole heart, with everything,

Even when that dream, began to scare me and fall apart.

My soul untwined when I let go,

That last and final time, I said good luck and said goodbye.

I can’t keep losing you - I said with tears in my eyes,

I’ve lost you each day since.

It is better to miss you in every breathe,

Than wait for a dream to come true.

To long for what could have been with each new hand,

That holds mine, it is better this way.

I think about us, in the midst of new conversations,

Hoping I will turn to see your face, across the room,

Your eyes meeting mine, through the crowds of people I so easily stand out from.

But you’re never there; like you never really were.

A ghost I keep alive with every tear,

I still find to cry, even after all this time.

Has it been some time? Not necessarily, no.

It was only yesterday.

Part of me believed I was yours forever and you would be mine,

How could we both have been so blind,

My heart broke a million times over and yet I still saw who we could be,

Romanticizing the pain does not make it go away.

But it does keep my longing heart from continuing to break,

That is all I’ve prayed for, for my own sake.